When’s the last time you kissed someone? When is the last time you hugged or talked to someone?
When is the last time you were in a place – country, city, town, house, park?
Most of the time we don’t know it and we think about it only after days, months or even years have passed since that moment…
What would I do differently if I knew that this moment would never happen again?
But sometimes in an indescribable way we know it. We know subconsciously that something was different this time. It may only last a split second but when we look back in our minds to that moment, we know we felt it…
And you will say to me: “What of it?… If I can’t change anything, why torture myself?”
Indeed, we cannot change anything. And we may experience more and more similar situations along the way. But now we have learned to deal with them more calmly, perhaps even more philosophically.
But how is this possible, what has changed?
Is it something that we just accept now as an inevitable fact? Is it something that we experience as if we were a third person? Do we just put up a wall so we don’t feel and hurt?
No, the feelings are there. But they are no longer anger or despair. It’s a sense of understanding and a certain… sadness. A regret that much of what we can’t control repeats itself, and that’s the flow of life. But it also means that life goes on.
“I’m tired” you will say. Yes… and I understand.
“I’m tired of being sad and disappointed”
“I’m tired of falling and getting up again and again”
“I’m tired of getting my hopes up!”
What advice can I give you?
All I can say is that we ought to do everything we can to be well with ourselves. Whether that means making every effort to fight for something, or looking for a way to find your balance, or whatever else brings you into agreement and harmony with yourself.
Time may be the best doctor, but it is also up to us to consciously build resilience in difficult situations and to accept with joy and gratitude the positive experiences and lessons that life brings us.
